As January is winding down and we get accustomed to writing 2017 on things; I’m noticing there has been a shift in my mental state. I am ramping up the intentional and releasing the frivolous.
Awhile back, there was this young woman that came to our evening Bible Study. She was quite the opposite of me with her colorful Disney handbag, makeup always perfect, and her single lifestyle. She fascinated me in so many ways, mostly because I saw a shy, quiet little girl hiding behind all that brave. She has since told me I scared her a little bit when I would invite her to lunch and she would agree and then cancel. She’s a pleaser, she admits it, we address it with laughter, it’s become a thing.
We look back to those first days of friendship and now see how it was such a divine encounter. I basically waited her out, gained her trust, showed her I wasn’t moving on and she mattered. The honest talk just happened on an ordinary walk one day and it has never stopped. When we do get to spend time together, there is more of her genuine heart coming thru that lets ‘the reals out’. She feels safe enough to be herself and not worry about pleasing me. This has taken some time, some intentional thought and prayer and, I had to be real with her first.
Our visits now include lunch or running some of the mundane errands on our lists- just doing ordinary life. Every once and awhile she will quote me, back to me, as she fondly says “I will always remember how you shared this” or “one time you told me this”. Frankly, I rarely have recollection of that moment, but the biblical truths she quotes are in my heart so I claim them and I am thankful I was obedient to share them.
The other day we were out in a very busy home accessories store and she sat down for a rest in this lovely, tufted chair. As I sat down on the chair in the aisle across from her, we had a spontaneous little heart to heart. When I looked back later, I was surprised how openly we were discussing such heavy topics in that setting so naturally.
It has become so much more urgent to me to make legacy moments in the midst of the chaos we call life, this recent aisle side chat brought to light how this had shifted in my heart. I have started to count my days in encounters. Did I take time to encounter God this morning through His word? Did I plan my day with God? How many conversations/encounters went past the surface? How many people did I get to share my heart with in conversation? How many times did I share a biblical truth with someone that was seeking? How many people did I get to pray with, not just pray silently for in my head?
Keeping it real, some days are still a blur, the ones where all my worlds collide and I seek to keep my head above water and just do the right thing. Other days are slow starters and there is time for this intentional pursuit. The only constant in them - God is God of all the days and He has ordained every one of my days. My prayer is that I seek Him, in all the ways He brings across my path and that I have spent time seeking Him, so I am full of something worth saying. More on that process next time. ~Teri